Hard to be scared of ghosts
if you are one.
Hard to be scared of using dope
after all the drugs I done.
Hard to be scared for knives
if you’ve been backstabbed and scarred for life.
Hard to fear fights if a part of you causes fright for yourself.
Hard to fear death if it feels like it’s all you’ve had.
Hard to fear heights if all you do is fall.
Hard to fear dark if you filled with light.
Not scared of choking cuz the rope been tight.
Hard to fear regret if the barrel been poking your head.
So many mistakes, guess it’s all I get.
Let myself go, let myself go.
If you’d all let me go.
I’ve had it. I’ve had it with life
tho I never been bad at it,
got bored, got sad, tho I appear with pride.
I’m up many nights.
I don’t sleep, I don’t eat, shit I don’t need any of these, I compete only with myself, now I’m in love, would wanna be with God, but He too far above.
Love always brings me up to break me down.
I’m the king wearing a broken crown.
What will ever satisfy?
If all was good, I’d probably still want to die.